Love is not something that you can put chains on and throw into a lake. That's called Houdini. Love is liking someone a lot.

-Jack Handey

Sorry, I needed some inspiration.

Further more:
on the topic of the blasphemous lie we call love at the tender age of 19:
Truth is mother fucker, you better hope you don't find the love of your life at 19.
In-fact, I personally hope that i find that person when I'm i dont know, give or take 25-26, because i have a lot of life to live before I can worry about love. I have a world to love, and perhaps one day ill find someone to love the world with but for now, I just wanna love a six pack and a ranger game, packed out raves and lazer beams, being the one girl in a room who doesn't wanna look the same, speaking my mind and not giving a damn, and figuring out that the whole world is a scam.
Im not knocking on Love, i'm knocking on lies. we have so much life to live and loving someone this young can only lead to death a demise. There is nothing wrong with loving someone at 19, but being in love or better yet, beLIEving that you are in love at this age is absurd and a rarity beyond my understanding. For all those believers I support your spirit but really people, wake up.
There are much more important things to love in life right now, then being in love with the idea, of being in love.
Love the life you're living today because when you fall in love tomorrow, it might all be over.

Bumblebee Bitches. (Poem)

Friendship Necklace, Days when we were breast-less.
Flipping into pools, the only way to make us breathless.
Save your words, they're all respect-less.
But the issue I have,
the one that makes me restless
is what happened friendship being Sexless?
Now Stop.
Let's sit,
Take a second.
Now lets think:
When we were the happiest,
none of it involved this sappy shit.
Life was all about a ball
and how hard you could hit.
Not about how many bitches touched your dick
or all the tits you say you tricked.
What happened to the butterflies?
Fireworks in your eyes,
beaming bursts of energy that started deep inside,
looking at the clouds with race-less zebra skies.
Don't blame puberty for your demise,
nothing has to do with size,
just try and pretend you're a girl
looking through your sisters eyes,
hearing the cat calls
because with everyone I hear,
I wanna cry.
Each and every howl I feel a piece of my beauty die.
But all I ask of you,
is when you look at a girl,
do you still get butterflies?

I Hate Valentines Day (Poem)

"I Hate Valentines Day"
Something that I've heard every girl say,
in each and every tone and way.
But what I mean when I say " I hate Valentines Day",
is this:
There is nothing more Cliche then giving a bitch of a box of chocolates because society makes it ok,
on this one random day.
A dozen fucking roses? What a waste of your pay, everyone knows the prices get jacked up for the day.
Dinner and a movie?
Well that's a new way to stick it to me,
doing what every damn guy does,
just proves you never knew me.
Teddy bear, who the hell care.
Giant card?
Real clever, retard.
But what I'm trying to say,
it's not that I hate love,
It's that I hate Valentines day!
There's 364 days a year where I'd Happily accept all things cliche.
Because to me,
Love is more than a stupid day.
Bring me flowers because its may
and the warm spring air told you to bring me them
because you knew it would make my day.
write me a letter because you thought of a new way to say
"Hey I love you, in each and every way"
Give me a bear because you're further away than the oceans stare.
Send me candy with notes of our first glares.
Tie matching ribbons on our wrist with secrets for us, no one else has to care.
Tell me you love me 364 days a year
just not the on the day
everyone has to share,
that my love,
is what shows me you really care.

Germany

So since my long absence I have failed to mention that i went to germany. It was wonderfully breath taking in every way possible. I drank more then i can remember and saw more then i knew my eyes could see. I sang songs and drank beer in the oldest brewery in Munich while i was wearing traditional Beer Garden girl clothing. I fought A German sheep at a petting zoo. I stood in Marine Platz while FC Bayern played ManU in the play offs, and won. I felt more energy from drunken fans then I have ever felt in America. Do you know what its like to stand in the middle of what is honestly just a city and hear thousands of people singing the same song, all over a soccer match, well its absolutely and overwhelming the most energetic breath taking experience that i have ever experienced, and you my friend, you should try it too. I stood on the grounds that Oktober fest are held on, the grounds that are forever reserved for a festival that has been around far longer then even my beloved Omi. I climbed to the top of Saint Peters church and looked down on this magnificent city, all the redish rooftops bentheth the tallest tower, it's a law you know, they cannot build any structure taller. I saw a whole city shut down for easter, and i mean shut down, there wasnt a drop of beer to be sold that day and it was beautiful. It is the first time in my life that can honestly say that i admired unity. I danced in a club that held over 5000 people, met a soccer playing German Italian boy named Stefano, he was also, indeed, Beautiful. I saw the Olympic Village that tragedy so horribly struck and i rode a train that was so clean that it baffled me. I can really go on forever but what was most wonderful about my trip was that i got to see my cousins and meet my great aunts and i did it all with a girl that at one point i believed to be my best friend in the whole entire world.

a lot has happened heres what you should know.

1- Honey Badger dont give a shit.
(yes this is most important)
2- I had a boyfriend, shit was real, shit is no longer real in my mind.
3- he got a tattoo for me...2 months after we broke up.
4- its been a rough break up but im A-Ok with life right now.
5- i do not go to the college i started at. i dont want to talk about it directly, thats for you to figure out my little mysterions.
6-still love my cats.
7-my sisters arent really babies at all anymore.
8-go rangers, i believe.
9- chili dogs are gross
10- my hair got long even tho yall bitches dont know what i look like.
11- im at war with my dreams and ambitions right now, theyre fiercely fighting reality, do i want a job when i get out of school or do i wanna say "yeah, i chased that dream". i would give you an answer but i dont know, when i do however, i gotchu.
12- find one thing a day that inspires a thought that you would not of previously thunk, challenge your mind, see where it can take you. but dont drop acid, that shits bad for you.

Song of the dayyyy

soo, The Ting Tings, yes i've hopped on the band wagon a little late but who likes hay rides anyway? This is what i feel towards a few people in my life right now, i hear this song and suddenly im a funky British lesbian who dont give a shit. Let life happen, I promise it will be beautiful.

Shut up and Let me Go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H-8iFO6Ww-o

Well Hello Hello big empty internet space, i've missed you.

So, forgive my absence for i was not really occupying my body for that time period of life anyway. Shit changed, life took some unexpected turns and I almost forgot to take the time to write everyday. But i'm back now, not forever but for what i can promise, I'll be here until you're reading my nonsense out of a news paper, yah know, the kind you pay 50 cents for, its made of paper, and you read it, you should go pick one up. I've picked up a fancying for poetry so you'll be seeing a great deal of that. I still will not be spell checking, or giving a shit for that matter. I've aged but my mind is still in the same haze of fucked up absurdity that we know and love. anywhosers bitches, no ones reading anyway, but if you are, I love you, honestly.