Im gonna go perform this in a bit. Kinda nervous, I feel rusty.
This one is for anyone who has ever
loved someone who has made the same mistake time and time again.
Last night, you stuck a needle in your
arm as you begged for God.
You rocked back and fourth like you
were a child in your Father’s arms.
As if you were crying out, “Daddy, Save
me”
But the look in your eyes matched the daemons
in your mind and they whispered
“just one more taste and maybe this
time we’ll find that sacred place”
You used to be my NASA Cadet,
Launching out of this would.
Claiming, “there just isn’t enough
space”
You once told me that you could eat a
whole rose bush without feeling the thorns
But today you couldn’t even blow a wish
from a dandelion.
So I, made a wish for you.
Our vertigo, mirrored green eyes,
starred at each other with doubts.
8 years, with and without, but still,
deep down, all I think about is you.
Not the you in front of me.
The you buried deep inside of me, with
all that time and those memories of when we were kids.
When the sky was so fucking blue and
perfect that it was disgusting
And when we would try to count to
summer stars on those quiet nights.
We must of tried to count them a
million damn times before we learned that
“hey kid, some things are just that
impossible”
I wanna believe that getting you back
is possible.
When we would steal bottles of wine and
chit chat and watch the fire flies with all the kids we called friends even if
we never saw half of them again.
When you protected me and I thought you
were SO annoying.
When you told me boys were evil,
But I still continued to fall for them.
Well its your turn now,
I Wont let you fall again.
This morning when you woke,
You looked surprised.
But you survived.
And this could be a new day or another
one full of self demise.
Just tell me that you wont keep closing
your casket while you’re still alive.
The most healing thing you can do is
reminding yourself everyday, that you are not alone.
That when you want help, I’ll always be
home.
If everyday you fight one more day then
I promise you will always have another day.
