Coffee Cake

Here's the thing, I like who I am when I am it but then sometimes I don't think I am it anymore and suddenly, i don't like me so much anymore. Hell, I'm probably the most screwed up thinker I know but those thoughts never harm anyone, but myself that is. I can't do anything right perceivingly so, but i dont exactly think i'm doing anything wrong. Fuck it, maybe that's the problem; maybe whats right and wrong dont even fucking matter. Over the past how ever many years i've learned that no matter how much good you do in life, any bad will over shadow it and it wont matter. i wanna live in a world where people wanna be apart of something because they feel that part inside of them. not because it benefits them or looks good on a job application. i wanna live in a world where judgment isn't passed on selective terms. If you wanna be a judgmental piece of shit, be that person 24-7 not when its convenient for you. convenience is another, in my opinion, huge issue with the fucking world. there is no fire burning unless someone is cold and sometimes that's just fucking wrong. the Terms and conditions of life are all screwed up and I think my main concern is just trying to figure out how to get them to not apply to me. This shit is stupid.